Happy Birthday Mum..

happy birthday mum. best wishes for everything and hope that everything will get better in due time =)

Time flies pass you without you realising it. Have you ever wondered how to stop time from ticking pass or even to stop it at all?!?! It is an impossible thing but everyone has had the feeling where time just doesnt seem to be ticking pass at all- especially when u really want to get out of a certain situation or place. I think that there is not enough hours in one day. Like if one day had like 36 hours instead of 24 maybe it mite make a difference or something. I hope that this new year will actually bring a change about to most of the things around us. I really want to get another job other then just being stuck here. I want to be able to earn that income again , i dun care if it is a second or thrid job, i just want to get one soon.

Right now im just so confused to what is going to happen, are they coming back or is this it? Everything is just going to be like that and that we will have endless headaches on bills , rents and countless calls to settle everyday. to live in a fear of opening the leter box or post box , just because nothing good ever comes in that mail , unless its a cheque or something. To have the phsycially wearing 7 day job that never comes to an end, one that screws up all the possibilities of working during the day in a place where the income is stable and consistent. Sometimes i really dream that if everything was right to start with, what sort of situation would we be in right now? but i know for sure that is wouldnt be the situtation right now. However, we are just human after all, and everyone makes mistakes, some bigger then the other and some mistakes just stick with you and last a lifetime.

One can only dream abt having the perfect life. There is no such thing as the perfect life, even if it does exist , there is always something more behind it. I am not asking for alot, i just want everything to come to an end, or settlement. so maybe i can start my own career and start something new. but then again, it is so hard to get a job now, every full time job asks for a minimum requirement of 2 years experience, but if no one is given the chance how are we suppose to gain that 2 years experience. I just want to start somewhere. Everyone around who is graduating has a job with a firm, it does put an invisible layer of pressure on me as to why it is so hard for me to get one. I know some certain factors of it, but i guess , if it is meant to be its meant to be. And i have to say that applies to winning the lotto too. I jsut want to win a small amount, just enough to settle this shit and get over with it.

It is time to grow up and open my eyes to see the harsh reality of working life. The problems of everyday life is the challenage that makes us understand the meaning of life and the main factor in allowing someone to mature . I just hope that the dark and misty path im taking will soon be lit with some sunshine and light, so as i can see where i am heading and walking towards, but no matter how dark the path is, i know i always have ppl around me to push me through.

" One step at a time"is what i tell myself. But i came across this phrase that i reckon applies to everyone and i would like to share it.

" Now and then, its good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy" .

take care everyone. xoxoxo