the hot weather is finally here huh, i guess its good i get to tan a little , i have become like soooo white during winter and all, but i dont want to get too tan as well..haha mite look a little too charchol if i do *lol*

i was just thinking, boys, guys, men, they are all the same isnt it. wat they are thinking like 90% of the time it is probably just like anything to satisfy their needs- if u get wat i mean, and 10% of the other time maybe they mite think abt food, car and anything else that is not related to the ther 90% . sometimes i really dun get it how can pl think abt it all the time. but i guess at least he does respect me and understand. haiz, they are real silly i have to say.

i miss chucky. back to the counting down another 2 weeks. well just read the email and he feels like he is such a fuck head coz he didnt get me anything, and his work mates have been telling him he is an idiot..but i told him i dun need anything, i dun want him to think that he needs to make me happy by buying me stuff or anything. i just like him being around. but then again i hope it doesnt bore him after a while, i dun know why but this thought has been through my head once and it has been stuck there. it is like wat if he gets bored sooner or later or like ... im just being emo now isnt it...thinking too much.. i have to say i guess it rans in the family ..everyone is a thinker in this family, jeral is, dan is, bin definitely is and i have to say i have proven my point of being a thinker.

i should really stop thinking abt it and just live life as it comes. back to my original life theory- live every min to the max, and just enjoy every moment of it.

the next thing that has got me thnking is getting a job and all... finding full time job aint as easy especially being in the banking and finance industry, just hope it will get better the economy and all and i really do hope to get a job some where soon enough. even if it is just casual and all, i am so sick of having to work at mums yet not getting anything into the bank account, and i dun want to be seen as one who just leeches off her sister and everthing i want to be back to where i earned me own so i can just go out without havin to think twice abt where that money came from, i just get angry thinking abt how we got into this situation to start with, fucking immigration system ... ppl who are trying to do the right thing just have so many things to have to satisfy their requirements, yet the boat ppl are getting like luxury houses anad allowance money eveyweek for them. seriously just reading abt it frustrates me even more. ARGH~!!!!!

right now im just glad to have everyone around, coz hangin out with them makes me go into this world where i dun have to think abt anything for that moment and just enjoy wat is given in front of me . and i want his cuddles right now...miss that silly boy...

live it up !!!!!
til the next update xoxo