its sunday...that means back to work tmr =( i wont mind if it was something thta is not so much pressure and a job where there isnt endless in flow of bills and calls that u have to handle every now and then. if everyone is working hard, and chucky working super hard, i tihnk i can handle this. However, i really wonder how long can this go on for? there is still no solution to this situation and it doesnt seem like there is an end to it, i just wish things can be sorted out soon enough , or at least there is a conclusion / end to one of the problems.

now a days i find her rather naggy, such a nag she can drive me rather nuts sometimes i have to say. like i know she means well and good since she is doing most of the washing and she has taken over the role of having to handle everything else under this roof but still she needs to know that she is becoming such of a NAG!!!!! to be honest i know i can be lazy and cant be bothered to do anything but that doesnt mean i wont do it. Furthermore, she needs to know that i cant always be that hyper i do have my own mood swings too just because i dun show it as much sometimes coz i think she has to handle so much already, she doesnt need more of this to add on to her stress level. she knows it herslf she can be the ULTIMATE BITCH at times. if i dun smile and or like have a very emotionless face she will ask why is ur face like that? in such a tone that it can really annoy me. sometimes i think maybe that is why we need time to hang out separately sometimes, but then again , there are times where everything is just good. if she can cut down on her nagginess at times, it will help to save my ears. sometimes i do think to myself she is the boss , everyone in the family calls her that, but sometimes she really aint the boss of me. but right now i feel like im indebted to her in many ways, but she has to understand i am human after all , i do have emotions and mood swings for that matter. it may be very erratic sometimes but oh wells, every girl will understand.

the thing is she is very stubborn and she does want tthings to alwyas go her way. i guess sometimes i think only brother bear can handle her, she needs to less of such a bitch sometimes. but no matter how bitchy or a nag she can be i really love her alot, she is the closest family to me . just wait a little longer, i will have my second job and soon the load wil be lighten ..i promise, i will try to keep my promises. i miss cuddles...........

xoxoxo