back again....

im finally back to blogging again, stupid thing i finally remembered my password to log in. lol
well well but then again i got nothing much to blog. everday is the same just stay home, and make myself like a prisoner. lol

just went for a 2nd round interview today, i hope that i can get that job, *fingers crossed* however, is due to experience circumstances and i dont get the job, then i really wish i can get a job soon. it is getting to my head for everything, the money issue to the job stability issue, i just dun want to keep having to reply on someone. so used to getting an income into my account, without it, im just lost and confused. however, this job hunting process does put your into slight depression and unmotivated mood. it is a tough world, but im starting to miss the life i use to have where i could go out with my friends without having to worry and could go out on the weekend without having to think twice.

but then again, everyone will have to experience this sort of poverty in their life to grow and understand life better and to learn to treasure money. but im ready ages ago to get out of it, just one job even if it is another retail job i dun mind til i get the job i want. why is it so hard ?!?!? i mean i am not totally unhappy with life now, not that emo..lol. i got all my friends, my family and chuck who is there to support me whenever i am in trouble. i guess it is more of a personal question and quest to find myself back again.

once i get a job at least i feel a sense of security , i can hel out with the debts and i dun have to feel like i own ppl money. with a job , time would pass faster too, this time around the 3 weeks felt like forever, i guess coz im not as busy as i would be if i got a job, but at least just another 3 days and he would be back =p

just spoke to mum and dad on the phone, i feel sad for them and i feel their agony. why are they going thru so much when other ppl who were in similiar shoes could get that pr so easily, and how long more do they have to go thru this tough times til things can be settled down?? questions keep poppping in my head, but answers doesnt seem to appear. sometimes i do have the feeling that i need to break down and cry it out, but it seems i think i ran out of tears already haha i tihnk i have done that too many times, but mum never fails to run out of tears. so many things going through my head buti really hope that i would be able to answer them slowly.

at the moment, i just wish chuck was back, to be here, to add to the support( thou i know i got the family, lbs, the girls ) but still i guess coz its just him and somehow his cuddles makes me feel things will be okay, and it will work out. soon enough..soon enough.

i ran this quote which really makes me feel i can contiune striving .
" We should never let our fears hold us back from pursuing our goals"
therefore, i should not let the fear of rejection, depression stop me from being strong to keep stiriving to get where i want to be eventually.

til the next blog , take care ppls..
xoxo